Remix of the Song "Invisible"

In my creative writing class we had to choose a song and express a story through the meaning of the lyrics. I chose the song "Invisible" by Hunter Hayes (if you haven't heard of it, I really recommend checking it out sometime). My story that I made up was so inspiring to me that I wanted to share with everyone what I created. I would love it if I could get some feedback like if you liked it or if it sounded like the song if you have a chance to spare. I hope you guys like it and maybe even inspire you in some way.(remember its just made up, none of this really happened.)

Another day has started, which means another day for not fitting in and pretending to be someone that I’m not. When I get to school, I bring music to my ears whenever I have time to spare especially during passing time; so I don’t have to focus on how I’m so alone and such an outcast. So many people are just pushing me through the halls acting like I don’t exist. I hear snickering coming from behind and then I get shoved into a locker by a huge football player by accident. Once he realizes what he did, he apologizes right away and says he didn’t see me there. After fighting the crowd, I make my way to the bathroom. I’m leaning over the sink trying to control my pain and my tears. When I get the chance, I look up in the mirror and start to see my reflection of myself disappearing. Suddenly, all I could see was the stalls and everything else surrounding me, but the only thing that I couldn’t see was my own reflection. Am I really invisible? I knew I sure felt like it but I wasn’t sure if I truly was or not. I pinched myself to see if this was really happening or if it was just a dream. Of course, it was real! A group of girls come in while their giggling and gossiping about something, and they don’t even notice me sniffling like crazy with my face and eyes all red. They were in there for about 5 minutes and not one comment or even one look from any of the girls. I wonder if they even know if I am there or not. Once they all left I was finally all alone. I started crying even more because I couldn’t get a group of girls to believe that I exist. I bent down and sat along the wall and hid my face inside my lap. With my hands folded crisscross and my face hidden away, I could see through the small crack two pairs of men’s dress shoes standing by my feet.

The guys both say in a deep and old crackly voice, “Sweetie, don’t let them get to you. Even if we can’t be with you in person anymore, you mean the world to us and all this pain going on inside you right now will just be invisible later on!”

I knew those crackly old voices anywhere. I slowly bring my head up to see if I was right. And I was; there standing at my feet are my two grandpas with a huge smile on their faces! They both lend a hand and helped me up from the cold, gross floor. One of them noticed that I was crying so he took his hand and gently wiped my tears of pain away.

               The one that wiped my tears away kept repeating over and over that everything would be OK. “Just because you’re confidence may seem silent right now doesn’t mean you are weak! Society wants to see you fail and give up. But, bite them in the butt and tell them that you’re never going to give up no matter how hard it may seem. Go out and show the world that it’s ok to be an outcast and to be different!”

               I turn my head to my other grandpa as he starts to talk, “The world will never understand what you’re are going through or the labels they give you that you don’t deserve. Just remember when you feel like an outcast, we both will be right by your side waving a flag at you saying that everything will be ok, you’ll always have us, and most importantly everything that you’re feeling right now will pass and soon be invisible!!”

               I heard footsteps coming towards the bathroom and I turn to where my grandpas were standing. They weren’t there anymore. I was confused where they went and why they had to leave so early. But then, I realized no matter if they are down here on Earth or not, I’ll never be invisible to them!!

The Killing Disease

Heres a poem that i wrote that is dedicated to both of my grandpas (Grandpa Pete Pirc and Grandpa Les Pereboom) that are both up in Heaven looking watching down on me!!

Everybody hates me for what I do
Everybody including you
I ruin people’s lives
Sometimes they don’t even survive
I start in one location
But as I start to spread, I’m like my own nation
I make people weak
Further on they can’t even speak
Everyone tries to fight against me
But I can be so powerful that they can’t be free
Treatment is my worst friend
Because of it I could come to an end
They could win this fight
And I could be out of their sight
But what they probably don’t know
Is that I could always come back and continue to grow
As I become stronger
They can’t handle it any longer
All the pain and tears
Coming from all their peers
I’m nice enough to them to give them one last chance to say good bye
But then I have to be the bad guy
You’re now mad at me because I took someone that meant the world to you
It’s like you want to just squish and kill me with your shoe
Now of course all you want is an answer,
OK fine, My name is Cancer!!!

A couple weeks ago I was kinda mad at God for taking both of my grandpas away! But then i realized that it wasnt him, it was cancer! So i wanted to write about something dealing with cancer. At first i wanted the view of someone who had it, but then i thought even better the point of view of cancer itself! Thats how i got encouraged to write this piece!!

From Dark to Light

Last week on Thursday, i was having a rough morning. So then when i got to my language art class i found out that i would have to write a 700 word essay about a book that i had no idea what it was about. So that did not make me feel any better. The first 10 minutes i tried to focus on the essay but i just couldn't. So then i just gave up and decided to try something new and write a poem about what i was kinda feeling! I spent the rest of the class figuring out words that rhyme with each other and whenever my teacher passed by i would act like i was working on the essay but in reality i was doing nothing with it. (Dont worry i got it done eventually). Once i was done, this was the final piece which was titled "From Dark to Light":

Laying on the cold, wet, grassy ground.
Letting the crickets speak to me through there sound.
I close my eyes
And all that comes to me are all the lies.
Tears start running down my cheek
Drop after drop realizing im done with my seek
Im giving into all the pain
Its like im in a crash of an airplane
I see a bright light coming from the dazzling stars
then walkin towards me with a beard a white robe showing his suffering scars
One on each foot and one on the palm of each hand
He speaks to me like it was planned
He says, "you're a beautiful creature of mine
Don't be scared to let your spirit shine!
I chose  you to be a creation and will guide you to the right path
If you stay with me it'll be as easy as math
So go ahead and spread my words to everybody especially the ones you love
I promise ill give you great gifts from above.
When things do become challenging and hard,
Just remember this one thing that I will always be your body guard!"

After writing this, it made me realize that God is my light and will always be protecting me!!! He never leaves me by myself not even for a second. He truly is my body guard and makes sure nothing happens that i cant handle!! Who knew my own writing would teach me and bring me closer with God!! Out of all the body guards out there including the president's sercruity guard, I have and will always have the best protector a girl like me could ever ask for!!

Gamer Style

I know im not a video game expert, but i do know that if you make a mistake or lose your life, theres always a second chance or a redo to make from your mistakes! My life is a huge video game and my controller is the one and only Jesus Christ!! One of things i love about having God be my controller is that no matter how many times i make a mistake or lose a life, he still gives me infinite number of lives and several checkpoints to start over at! I'll admit because i was born a sinner, I've made several mistakes, but He still loves me and choses to keep controlling my adventures; he just doesnt leave me hanging! Its cool to think about how he has the opportunity to use the arrows and jump keys to get us away from situations that could lead us to danger. Ive also found that he may bring us to those situations (like maybe getting locked in a room that needs patience, time, and a strategy to be able to escape from the darkness that is trying to attack us!) and when he does it may seem like its game over  but in reality its not and he is doing this to protect us  and to be able to trust him even more! Ive been in that position many times where i thought it was game over, that ive used up all my lives, and felt like God paused the game or just left me hanging so he could take a break from the game. But as time went on, i discovered that he never and will never leave to go take a break ( not even a bathroom break), and how that theres always a reason behind his mysterious ways of playing. Romans 12:12~ "Let your hope keep you joyful, be patient in your troubles, and pray at all times!!"  When it does seem like He just left you hanging, the very best thing to do is pray! Praying wont hurt anybody! It'll actually strengthen your relationship with our Savior!! Game over means that your giving up on all your chances out there to make things right and to have a second chance at things, and most importantly your saying to the controller that you dont want him to be controlling you anymore! God is our number one controller and we should praise him and thank him for chosing our paths thats ahead of us.

When people die, they think that their game is over and wont be able to do anything anymore, but to be honest its a whole new level that no one could imagine!! They actually get to meet their controller and be in eternal life with him!! Im excited that one day when i finally pass this difficult level called life and begin the new one, that I'll be able to be and always be with my one and only controller that  created me and that hand picked all my features that i have today!!!!

Bad Things, Good People??

Today is exactly one month of my grandpa's death from cancer. It's still is a huge struggle getting use to that he's not there anymore but he'll always be in out hearts. The following question popped up into my mind several times, but especially alot today.

         "Why do bad things happen to good people?"

I never fully understand the answer (and i still don't), but it caught to me how we really should look at things in a whole different way. Jesus died for all of us because he knew we were all gonna be sinners, and that we needed someone to be our savior. According to the bible, there's no such thing as "good people" (expect for Jesus and God) so therefore bad things happen because of sin. Because we all have sinned against the Lord, we all should deserve to go to eternal hell, but because God loved us so much he sent his only son down to Earth so he could die for our sins so we can have eternal life up in heaven!! ( John 3:16). A better way to look at it is that bad things happen to people who don't deserve it because God allowed it happen for his special reasons. For an example, he allowed it to be my grandpa's time because he knew it was the right time to welcome him into his kingdom, and so he won't be in so much pain anymore. I personally would rather have myself be in pain while my grandpa is pain free up in Heaven than we both in pain but he's suffering way more. When struggles or bad things do happen to come in our way, just remember to trust God with all your heart because God has a plan and purpose for everything. He'll use those painful experiences sometime in your future to help him grow closer with him and bring you to eternal life!!

The better question to be asking yourself is "Why do good things happen to bad people?" like why does God let good things happen to people who don't believe in him is the main question.

Every new challenge (or terrible thing) that happens to me, instead of looking at it in a negative point of view, I'm gonna look at it in a positive way of becoming a better follower of the Lord Jesus Christ!!!

The New Me

Well today was my first day as a sophomore in high school! Time sure has flown by so fast! It feels like just yesterday i was kissing my mom on the cheek while sending me off to kindergarten! If i had to look back to myself to the start of 8th grade, i sure would never expect myself to be where i am right now! Ive grown so much with relationships, my faith with God, and finding who the real me is! Everybody has been telling me that high school is a huge part of my life ( not just with the eduation but discovering the true things that mean in life)! As a freshman last year, i sure didnt find any answers that i wanted! I dug myself in a huge hole and it basically took me the whole school year to get out! I kept getting deeper and deeper into the hole and felt like i was just suffocating with everything going on around me. I finally got the courage to crawl out of the hole and ask for help. Thats when i realized that God didnt give me this wonderful life so i could do all things by myself; he gave it to me so i could learn from my mistakes, for others to help me get through my struggles, get closer with him, and know that i need help from others especially him to be successful with my life! The middle school me would have not been able to get through that big thunder storm, but the high school me can definietly get through any thing with Christ right by my side! Philippians 4:13 ” I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me”!! Thats one of my favorite verses because it explains that if i keep The Lord in my life, i can get through any thing he throws in my way. If i doubt him or stop believing in his true words, then my life is gonna suck and be like a huge snowball by having things be piled up trying to run over me! This school year i want it to be different!! Im a whole new person compared to freshman me! Im gonna be trying to look at things in a different way and in a more positive way! I also am gonna try to not let things get out of hand and for sure not let myself go back in that deep dark hole. As the year goes go, i understand that God is going to put challenging opticals in my life but as Romans 8:28 says, ” We know that in all things God works for good for those who love him. Those whom he has called according to his purpose!!”

The Roller Coaster Called Life

Hey everyone! im new to the whole blogging thing. I had a different blog but now i decided to go with this one. I wanted to start of by sharing my very first thing that wrote!

There are ups and downs in everyone’s life. I would describe my life as a giant roller coaster that I can’t seem to get off. I do enjoy roller coasters at theme parks and stuff, but this ride is different. I’m so tired of repeating the same course over and over. I keep screaming to stop the ride and to get off. No one listens. Everybody just assumes the ride is fun and I’m screaming of joy. No one understands the feeling of this ride but me. My screaming leads to tears of weakness and fear. What makes me feel a little relieved is being at the bottom of the hill getting ready to go up. But, the catch is I start losing that feeling and get butterflies in my stomach as I go further up. Because everyone knows at a top of a roller coaster, you must come down and soon to get that queasy feeling in your stomach thinking you made a huge mistake of even getting on. At the beginning of this courageous ride, I was actually enjoying it, but as the hills and looped-de-loops become steeper and steeper, it becomes painful and scarier. Some days I feel like just unbuckling my seat belt so I can be able to go free and just get off. In my past, I’ve made the decision several times to actually unbuckle it right when the fastest part going down so I wouldn’t have to deal with all the emotions and I could just be free! Once, I even made the brave decision to stand up getting ready to jump out; I just couldn’t take all this anymore. Right before I was about to jump, I looked down at ground. Even though from my point of view they looked like tiny ants, I could see ALL my friends and family that loved me and that was an inspiration to me! Seeing them made me realize that I shouldn’t try to get off my ride. I got back in and buckled my seat back up very tightly. Thankfully I was towards the bottom so the queasy feeling would be gone soon. I still continue to go up and down hill even looped-de-loops throughout my adventurous ride, but what keeps me motivated the most is the ones that I love the most (and the ones that love me for my ride and not for how the cart looks) chanting my name and encouraging me to stay and hang on. And no matter what the ride may seem like, it ALWAYS gets better!